Do you ever come across someone who is just like you only seemingly more perfect? For example, you both love disney movies but she owns every single one on blue ray. Or you both are students, but she somehow passes 20 credits and works 30 hours a week. Or maybe you both work the same job, but she gets all the great hours and got her raise before you.
It's not that you're jealous, exactly. It's Envy. Plainly and simply... and you are unable to contain it... because you want so badly to be where she is in life, or have what she has, or possess her talent, or WHATEVER... that all you can do is wonder why you aren't that good. Why you aren't that special... why you haven't made it that far...
Has anybody ran into this situation? How do you get over it?
What's worse is I would really love to be friends with this person... but it's such a huge bullet, I'm not sure I can even bite it... you know? Gah!!
It's not that you're jealous, exactly. It's Envy. Plainly and simply... and you are unable to contain it... because you want so badly to be where she is in life, or have what she has, or possess her talent, or WHATEVER... that all you can do is wonder why you aren't that good. Why you aren't that special... why you haven't made it that far...
Has anybody ran into this situation? How do you get over it?
What's worse is I would really love to be friends with this person... but it's such a huge bullet, I'm not sure I can even bite it... you know? Gah!!
Uhm..yeah, this is my life.
ReplyDeleteRemember that horror story we all call high school? There were the girls who could run track, who were in all AP classes, who were pretty and popular, and genuinely nice (well, most of them), and they could maintain a 4.0 GPA and still seem sane? Oh, and of course they were homecoming royalty and had the cutest boyfriends...
I wished to be them...or at least be friends with them.
But then I realized, maybe I don't have what they have but they don't have what I have, either. I had peace, I had serenity, and I had a place I could escape to when things got rough. I had a family who would love me unconditionally, and back then I had a sibling who was my best friend. I had (and still have) the three best girlfriends in the universe...
At the end of the day, it's not about grades, or getting the promotion or the good hours at work, or having the newest releases on blu-ray...it's about having a heart full of love, and knowing that no matter where you end up in life, you're always going to have that.
I hope this helps. :)
I'm just not sure that they don't have that, too... you know?
ReplyDeleteWell you have a really cute puppy. I bet they don't.
ReplyDeleteDon't dwell on what you don't have..be proud of what you do and focus on that. :)
Well said, Emily!
ReplyDeleteSome people are type A's, and some aren't. You also should know those people are the ones who are incredibly stressed on the inside, without it showing on the outside. In the long run, they may appear to have a lot of friends-but they simply don't (and can't) have the time to nurture the relationships the way other people do.
Maybe in the short term they will achieve, but to what end? Isn't literature full of people who died wealthy, with lots of hangers-on, but lonely?
Case in point, Michael Jackson. TOTAL perfectionist. Died alone and lonely. He often spoke of being lonely in interviews. Sad, but he didn't know how to nurture the real relationships. Yes, he had kids and loved them, as they loved him. But who else surrounded him? Even his family was not close to him.
Treasure your close friends and family. By all means, pursue new relationships-we can learn from everyone we meet, and we have something to offer them, aw well. Besides, my dear one, you are soooo perfect to me!! Love, mom
It's true. I guess I've just never let this feeling come over me before. I used to feel this way a little about skinny girls who thought they were ugly... But this time it's a certain talent that I wish I had... but I guess all I can do is just keep working toward it, and hope for the best.
ReplyDeleteThat's right. You keep working on it, girl. You will figure it out! I know with the ADD it is hard, but you have a lot of drive when you want something. Maybe you need a goal board? A simple bulletin board (like the one the blonde has on Two Broke Girls). Just something to work towards. You are getting there!!
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