ADD

I have self-diagnosed myself with ADD. Now, a lot of people say they have it, and I am not denying it for them (because who am I? A doctor?) but I would like to insist that not all of them know wtf they are talking about. First of all, there's a difference between ADD and ADHD. Mainly bursts of hyperactivity. I'm not going to go into detail about that... or about ADD at all, really. That takes time, effort, and will bore the shit out of you. (If you're anything like me... who's had to re-start research on it countless times). I'm going to tell you specifically how it affects my life.


If you are a follower of mine, you have undoubtedly noticed that I list things, constantly. It helps me get the things buzzing around in my head to at least stand in line. (Though I would rather they line up from tallest to shortest, if you know what I mean.... sometimes they do line up that way... anyway back to the point) Sometimes my lists are very specific, down to what I need to do in each room of the house... or what I need to buy in each department of each store... or worse - both. I wonder if this might be a little OCD. I'm not really sure... remember, I'm not a doctor. But my lists sometimes can look like FLOW CHARTS if I'm not careful. Those don't usually  For example (goes and makes a list of current tasks):

...sigh
That feels good. See? This stuff is generally ALL buzzing around my head, because once you get one list tackled* another one just shows up. You know? And this doesn't even count the other things I have to do, like the people I have to call, the yard work, cleaning my car out, feeding the animals every day, and of course blogging here, there, and everywhere. ( http://einthecorgi.tumblr.com ) <- shameless plug for my puppy's blog, which I write... duh.

*note that getting a list tackled means something a little unexpected. I.e. I always wind up saying something like:

WOW! That was a LOT of hard work... and I'm not even freaking done yet!!! 

and following that with sitting at the computer.

For example.. I just said that when I "cleaned my bedroom"... there are hardly any articles of clothing in my dresser... they are all in piles and baskets AROUND the dresser, in a very organized state of Clean and Not Clean.


And earlier when I "did the dishes" ...there are still about 10 things of silverware, a bowl, a tupperware lid... ummm I think that's all, not sure.

My desk remains unsightly, though I thought I cleaned the living room.

Oh, and of course, I wrote a to-do list that doesn't have everything I need to do on it.

Basically, things are never finished... and I've already started the next list. And it REALLY does constantly bother me in the back of my mind. (Shit, I just realized I forgot "clean the litterbox" in my to do list). What was I talking about?

....

If I get more sleep, and take caffiene supplements, and eat more green vegetables, and get a good work out every day or two, I do a lot better. But just thinking of how much work that is makes me want to write another list about it.


Ok. So that's me. That's why I get to say I'm ADD. And I didn't even mention the Mike's I'm drinking, the Jimmy Eat World playing, or the side conversation I am having with my fiance... until now haha. :)